I’ve been doom scrolling since 2020. 

It got worse post-Covid cause it became a habit. 

I’ve tried to break it. I’ve deleted the app more times than i can count only to find myself downloading it again hours or only a few days later. 

5 years ago i was on tiktok alot but i was also doing other things as well like frequenting the gym and running outdoors. ani mcm i swear, i feel like my eyeballs sometimes are glued to the screen mcm my muscle memory has evolved to thumb scrolls even in my sleep and i swear my adhd mikin terok. The addiction is real. i need to find a hobby. 

i need to start running again. but i tink i also need to pick-up something else. like i dont know? Mandarin? – not the fruit.  French?I’ve been meaning to take up french again for years, maybe this is the best time to do it. for the sake of breaking unhealthy cycle that has gone for too long. 

i went for french classes early 2012 before i can i say REPETE SILVOUPLAIT i was sent to korea for a short assignment. that’s when i realised i shouldve taken up korean instead. skali lapas atu kana antat ku ke Brussels. despite being in a french speaking city, i never picked it up. i dont know why, maybe it was Brexit? orterrorist bombings? maybe it was the tunnel renovations that never saw the light at the end? i did not have the time or appetite to learn it again properly. i survived with  my market french. oui oui. non non. entre entre!!! un sac sivouplait? carre four? kalau mau lawa lagi , sophisticated lagi, cest carre four? (mcm si banar).  

maybe the time is now. karang tah ku meliat brapa harganya belajar bahasa perancis ani. point is for me to scroll less. run more and the ocassional oui cest caaaa, jadore jadore mon chaton.

kiss me.