Sorry for my last post. I just realised it was PMS soon after stuffing my face with a whole bar of cadbury chocolate. he he. *kusut* . did a whole lot of nada today. was suffering from a bad case of insomnia last nite. went to bed at one but only ended up sleeping at six. im tired..and now full of sugar.

I took out a bottle of pepsi in the afternoon tadi and kinda missplaced the cap.. so i was thinking kan? eh. okay. sayang jua.i can’t put it back in the fridge, if i leave it on the kitchen counter .. abis karang gas nya..awu skalinya almost instantly, there was this voice in my head that said: “kay..Siti..now u have to drink it all.” – and i was like ok. why not.

Spent the whole day taking 5 minute breaks from my assignment to finish off the bottle of pepsi. SEORANG LAGI TU and it came in one of those BIG FAT bottles! haha macam every hour..a shot of pepsi a shot of pepsi.. chet. ani nah baru kedapatan tudong nya. kurang ajar banar. sudahnya abis..baru tia ada balik. urgh. .

sugar = calories. blaaaaaaaah.

more reason to be kusut.

im taking a break from my assignment..gonna indulge in a few pieces of lebanese sweets Oatmeal eerrr..bars before i start on it lagi.

kay.

i gotta go now.

kiss me.

ADDED:- Erykah Badu : On & On

Oh my,my,my
I’m feelin’ high
My money’s gone
I’m all alone
Too much to see, the world keeps turin’
Oh what a day, what a day, what a day

Peace and blessins’ manifest with every lesson learned
If your knowledge were your wealth then it would be well earned
If we were made in his image then call us by our names
Most intellects do not believe in god
But they fear us just the same

Oh on & on & on &on
My cipher keeps movin’ like a rollin’ stone
Wuw on & on & on & on
Alright till the break of dawn
I go on & on & on & on
My cipher keeps movin’ like a rollin’ stone
Oh on & on & on & on
Goldamit I’m a sing my song

I was born under water with three dollars and six dimes
Yeah, you may laugh cause you did not do your math
Like one, two, three
Damn y’all feel that
Like one, two, three
Thw world keeps turnin’
Oh what a day, what a day, what a day

The man that knows somethin’ knows that he knows nothin’ at all
Does it seem colder in your summer time and hotter in your fall
If we were made in his image then call us by our names.
Most intellects do not believe in God but they fear us just the same

Oh on & on & on & on
My cipher keeps movin’ like a rollin’ stone
On & on & on & on
All right the voltures swarm
I go on & on & on & on
My cipher keeps movin’ like a rollin’ stone
Oh on & on & on & on
Mad props to the God ja born

I’m feelin’ kind of hungry cause my high is comin’ down
Don’t feed me yours cause food does not indure
I think I need a cup of tea the world keeps turin’
Oh what a day, what a day, what a day

You rush into destruction cause you don’t have nothin’ left
The mothership can’t save you so your ass is gone get left
If we were made in his image then call us by our names
Most intellects do not believe in God but they fear us just the same

Oh on & on & on & on
My cipher keeps moving like a rollin’ stone
Ow on & on & on & on
You can’t fuck with me, so just leave me along
Oh on & on & on & on
My cipher keeps movin’ like a rollin’ stone
Oh on & on & on & on
And on & on

and if i listen to the sound of white..
sometimes i hear your smile..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. stress. i just need to vent. bleugh. feeling shitty as ever. on the verge of tearsssssssssssssssssssssssss.
i hate it how time flies.
im annoyed how the semester is coming to an end in the blink of an eye.
exams making me cuckoo. spring’s getting on my nerves and hay fever is to blame.
Monday, and im not feeling any better. My flu is still here. nose all blocked up..sneezing the moment i get out of the house..
And i hate howwww i dont want to spend the first few days of raya in brunei. but i just cant bring myself to book the first available
seat home. its just not normal. usually im the one all psyched up to go home after my exams.

Aaaghhh!!!!

God. please?

PS: KENAPA MISSY HIGGINS MENYANYI CAM KEDAYAN ANI KAN?

its good to finally hear from you. 😉

Ive finally submitted the last of my managing organisational changes punya assignment. one down. one more to go. wargh. truely feeling the pressure now. Need to get this last piece of assignment out of the way so i can fully focus on revising for my exams. *uwaaaaaaaaaaaa* *cough* sigup niniku lagi abis. *cough*. I finish on the 20th. YIPEE.

justy finished watching 13 going on 30 with Nauli. haha. she kept on interrupting me in between my tears.

*sas sidak sidak*
Nauli: mendingan main filem loh..
*sas sidak sidak*
Nauli: ya beneran, lihat tu.. nangis melulu.. *ketawa berabis in the world*
*sas looks at nauli..sidak sidak masih..*
Nauli: *ketawa berabis lagi in the world*
*sas inda tahan..nangis sama ketawa..*
Nauli: hahahahahaha.
*sas inda tahan, nangis sama ketawa lagi..*
Nauli: hahaha aku suka ngangguin orang bila nangis..biar kacau.

biar kelihatan GILA ya nau? hahaha.

the hell woman. hahaha. inda siok wah time menangis meliat movie kana kacau anie. rusak tarus mood. hahaha. dont ask me where the tears came from. kan pms kali. *sigh*. ive been teary-eyed all weekend. first there was edo’s departure, skali i cried over the Touch Down Mark gave Emily for her superb performance tonite (australian idol) ..and i weeped throughout 13 going on 30. buleh? must be a case of pmsing lah. wat else could it be? either that or my tear ducts have somehow malfunctioned over the weekend as a result of me never taking off my contact lenses. highly unlikely..but possible huhuhu. 😛

yeah anyway. does chewing GUM really makes your face smaller kah?

pahit sudah nie chinggam ku ah. *bida muka*

kiss me.

Nadd: tiyang kayu my lap. hehe. u too. 😉
Nadz: yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. ill be seeing you really2 soon!! thanks for the text the other nite. lovey dovey youuu!!

build my world around… <3

first off,

Happy 20th birthday Aimi 😛 . Sorry for wishing you late.. kemarin atu i kept on forgetting and remembering wah. by the time i remembered it was your birthday again..i was already in bed – half asleep. hahaha. Hope u had a good one. mwa! hehe.

Got teary-eyed hugging Edo for the last time lastnite. Can’t believe the little bugger is going home for good. oh how im gonna miss him.

wow wow wow wow.

bored. haha.
skool esok.
first paper on FRIDAY.

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

kiss me.

PS: BJ, u were right 🙁

Previously sang by the erra fazira *bleugh*..comes afdlin shaukin’s rendition of “Kerana” . Performed unplugged..hehe. Its not so bad lah compared to the original..which was just unbearable!!! haha. The song’s been around for a while now… huhu Soalnya Siapa punya OST (wayang yang ku liat sama si dd time muda muda dulu..huhu)

Aku sangkakan mengenali mu,
aku kenali hati budimu,
dan aku yakini engkau luhur,
menyayangiku dengan jujur,
kiranya bagimu itu semua.. hanya satu lakunan,
lakunan biasa.. tiada sedikit pun aku sedari
di persendakan selama ini..

Kerna terlalu mempercayai mu
kau istimewa dalam hidupku,
kerna terlalu menghormati,
terkeliru pandangan mata hati,
kerna terlalu mengasihi,
akhirnya terluka aku sendiri..

Thanks Mal.

kiss me.

Tag Replies:-
Nad: alhamdulillah. 3 laki. haha live long and prosper tu eh. hahaha. kekanda abdul wahab wahib sama wahub tue.
Godfather: hahahaha kau seorang inda cukup pacah kah? awue balik ku nie..coming soon. huhuhuhu. tunggu tunggu sudah SHEIKH JALUDDIN. hahaha.

1. a Hair cut.
2. The batik ensemble i saw Rianny wore at Bali Nite. i want those batik kebayass sooo muchhhh!!! it looks very frou frouuuuuuuuuu!! aaaaaaah. i have to go to jakarta this holiday. i just have to go and get myself lost in MANGGA DUA. wargh.

Mangga Dua –
This shopping center In Jakarta, that triggers haggling hormones in bargain hunters. huhu. I want!! So what if its a fake gucci. no one has to know kan? hahaha. OH AND YOU CAN EAT YOUR PRADA (yes. im still bitter as ever, Ms “OOo. I can’t dance to this song” 2005).

3. hmm.. shoes? i guess.
4. this necklace in a shape of a cassette player i saw at Fat.
5. New pairs of straight cut jeans. cheap ones. the Bettina ones doesn’t last forever. heh.
6. shoes. i want points. i want new white points.

Believe me, this is not the end of it.This list will eventually accumulate over the next two weeks..and at the same time, im hoping that i would be able to happily CROSS off some of the items in the list. thhuhuhu. .

its friday kan.this time last week we were preparing to go to Ronn Carroll. haha good ol times. 😛

Edo’s farewell gathering tommorow. really dont feel like going, but kesian him. he even sent us a text tadi as a ‘friendly reminder’ that he’ll be leaving this Sunday and that we really really really have to go. sigh. i guess this means that we’ll really really really be going then.

I, in the meantime will be stuffing myself with assignments and reruns of Home Improvement this weekend. haha. Jonathan Taylor IM SO FCKIN ADORABLE Thomas Goodness. Nadz, remember how we bought teen beat religously back in primary four just so that we could have the privellage of snogging him OFF our bedroom walls?. i will be reliving that veryyy moment..this time with better snogging skills la. hahahahaha.

ewwww. noooo. forget i said anything. hahaha

anyway,

have a good weekend kamuuuu. mwa!

kiss me.

Tag replies:
Radz: Selamat Berpuasa to you too. we have so much to catch up on. sigh. ill be seeing you very soon. i missy wissy you. hahaha. tani nyanyi BIRU ah. aku bawa LD ku sebasar basar alam atu over. haha.
Deeds: selamat berpuasa to you too. kalau ada belabeh biskut nestum saun saun ha? huhuhu. <3
Dah: hahahaha prak prak boom boom kan? hahaha.
Izzah: Send my love to him please. gtau ya isi tia credit ah. si sas cuba nelipun nda pandai tambus.

on the 3rd day of puasa..my true loveee said to me… hehe.. apakan.

Kamu its friday! and its the 7th of october! OCTOBER. 7th! Time flies gitu loh!! huhu. inda terasa ani kan.. my first paper is in 7 days. ha ha ha. *sigh* and i still have assignments that i have to hand in before 5pm this afternoon.. everyone seems to be in exam mode.. my phone hasn’t been ringing, no one has been buzzing my apartment for late nite karaoke sessions, nawa hasn’t been popping down for ciggarette breaks..nothing. chet.. its the dreaded time of the semester lah ni kan exam anie. inda papa. lapas ani SUMMER. 5 bulan cuti. NAH KAU. haha

lawa lagu ani ah..hehehe..

I was trying to call Brunei from my land line kemarin, there’s been a few peopple that ive been missing. Including, my boy, Liv, OUR BOY, Ede. tried calling him a couple of times, but no through number. kud it be possible that he has changed numbers kah? cheh. i tried ringing Nad58 up. atu pun cannot get thru. haha wasap nie? it can’t be my line..pasal i managed to get thru to my cousin in UK before that. sigh. ill try again tonight lah. kay. yes kamu. im homesick. missing the ayam golek from the gerai. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

*ohok*
i have a lecture at four. pigi inda?

gila. PIGI lah. trick question tu.

aperda.

RINA: bila kau balik????????????????????????????????????????

kiss me.

I saw a piece of unopened orange candy on the ground on the way here.I avoided picking it up afraid that i might chuck the sodding thing in my mouth rather than chucking it in to the nearest waste bin. It looked so good. I just logged in to my msn, everyone’s on “Out to Lunch” mode. An msn classic over the puasa month. ha ha. in other words, its getting old lah, its not even funny anymore *cough* kel *cough* 😛 (astaghafirallahalazim..posa..) haha.

Mun came around last nite and brought GGPP (Gila gila pengantin popular dang!) with her. Another sh*t movie. Wasn’t expecting it to be as sh*tty. hah. BOO-NESS for keeping my hopes up. bad taste to the bone. cawieeeeeeeeeeeee. Even Saiful Apek wasn’t as funny in the film. Tapi the only cali bit was pasal anu atu lah.. apa namanya nie.. KAWIN pun pakain MENGUNDI. hahaha PENGANTIN UNDI = PUNDI. But the movie dragged on for too long that when the climax finally arrived .. (PUNDI) inda lagi cali bah..mcm “sudahtah..sudahtah..tawar sudah ati kami” catu? haha. Plot nada i guess they were just banking on famous faces lah as usual.

Seems like the hot topic for conversation these days revolves around plans of going home for summer. Those that i have spoken to are also stuck in the same predicament; i.e not sure wether to go home or not. Ani pun , if kamu notice is all that i can ever talk about kan? haha. Yes sure, brunei will be good from a bird’s eye view (u know masa kamu kan landing..huhu) but it is not until you step foot in the airport parking lot that you realise that it’s just not the place to be (happens everytime..). I was just talking about this with a girl-friend the other day. Reasons of not wanting to go home can range from:- not wanting to bare with a-hell-lot-of-boredome..and little things like..not wanting to be seen fat.Family & friends can be jerks you see 🙁 .

I have come to a conclusion that Brunei is only a place to be when:-

1.you’ve accomplished so much academically that it gives your parents something to gloat about at family gatherings
2. You are no longer fat and are now capable of reaching the peak of Bukit Subok in 20 minutes without having to stop for OXYGEN.
3. When you’re completely over your EX and now, have happily moved on to an orang puteh boyfriend (hahahaha.)
4. When you have A rich & handsome and STRONG orang puteh boyfriend. (hahahahaha)
5. you are 100% mentally unaffected by boredome.

Dont ask me when im going back. cause i still dont know.

i need to get my eyebrows shaped. Nauli’s boyfriend just left. Maybe i could get her to do it for me tonite..hehe.

kiss me.

Tag Replies:
Dee: its hard to explain. calak = cookie cutter. haha. depends on how u use it lah. mcm calak pipi = pipi be blusher. be calak. mcm ada shape arah pipi atu wah MERAH. eh payah eh. lainkali tah huhuhu.
Izzah: bah.. PAU mau kau?
Aimi: ure bday is on the 8th apa? haha come back on the 8th 😛 hahaha.

“aiya.. i miss my flight ”
“flight go where?”
“Go tawau.., i buy ticket go taiwan.. but i want to go tawau..”

taken from Kel and Olivia’s talking ‘cock’ session.

*yawn*
siapa puasa hari ani???

AKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!! dia..dan merekaaa…

saja.. im bored. its lunch time. and i can’t have lunch. ha ha ha. kay. im going to
1. Mandi.
2. Get dressed.
3. Watch my sex and the city on W.
4. Pick on what Star is wearing on The View .
5. Wait till 2:45, till Oprah comes on.
6. Watch Oprah.
7. Go to school finish assignment.

see. With me and my sisters, there’s no need for fighting over the remote control as most of my favourite tv shows airs during the day, and theirs at nights. huhu.. but unfortunately for us, that’s just about the only thing we dont fight over.. he he 😀

oh. there’s a few numbers of birthdays today lah.

There’s Andie who turns 23 today 🙂
next, Wanah who turns 20.
lastly..Hana who also turns 20.

happy birthday guys. have a good one yeash??berakal berakal tah & love many many. mwa!

kiss me.

Feeling slightly under the weather. Seems like ive been sick on and off ever since the beginning of Spring. I might be lacking in the Vitamin C department..blaaaaaaaaaaaah. Hope it goes away by tommorow, wudnt want to miss the first day of Ramadhan. sigh. Kel’s outside strapped on the couch, eyes glued to the tv. its one of those long, draggy korean series again she’s watching. I’d watch it with her, but i fell asleep twice watching the first 2 episodes. Turns out that not every korean movie works for me. She hasnt budged in the last two hours. I however in that time frame, have been walking around the apartment, washing the dishes, doing situps in between folding the laundry. All as a substitute for excercise 😛 or in my case, procrastination from schoolwork.

I can’t be arsed walking or going to school today. It’s nice out but im scared going out of the apartment might retrigger all the fever-ish symptoms i had last nite. I swear, the moment i got out on to the balcony to dry the bathroom mats (*SMILES PROUDLY* yes! i did the bathroom too!) my throat started to itch. So i guess it’d be better if i stay home saja today haha im saying this in total disregard of the two assignments due in this Friday.

doo bee doo be doo.. so what’s up? huhu. Looking forward to the summer holidays. I can take a flight home on the evening of the 20th. but im still thinking about it. I havent even booked myself a ticket home, which will be really difficult after october as a majority of students will be flying home. Therefore, i have to make up my mind real soon lah.haiyah. i donno-tze. I’m waiting to land myself on a part time job. so that i can pay all my bills with and go home stress-free. I’d ask mami for the mooney but im somewhat.. too malu lah.. hehe.

This is already embarassing as it is and im probably not doing myself any favour by putting it up in writing but the truth of the matter is, I havent got ANY reply from the TEN places that ive sent my resumes to (aaagh!). Is it my lack of experience? or am i just not trying hard enough??? This somehow got me thinking kan..to find a PART TIME WAITRESSING JOB that pays sudah payah? apa lagi a real, money paying, self satisfying job? I mean will it be twice as hard to find a job after my degree kah?

Its a cruel world. You just can’t simply WIN everything kan?

im gonna try applying at Nelayan next. if i dont get this job..then yea feel free to drop by my house on the 3rd day of raya ya? i.e balek kampung tah ku tue mcm sudirman (eee apakan sudirman..huhu)!

I say hey~ hey~ ill love yo till the morning comes~
I say hey~ hey~ i kish you in the morning sun~

And on a lighter note.. everyone’s asking me what my nick:- “Cingkobaracing” on msn means. haha. Honestly, i dont really know myself. i got it off this old skool indonesian movie, “Si Kebayan”. If im not mistaken this phrase was a part of a spell. You chant it 3 times, skali you yourself will magically dissapear. hahahaha. cuba kamu cuba..ilang kah inda. oh. you’d probably need a special indonesian ‘hat’ to make the spell work pun. just like in the movie. wait.

you see this picture of Ida in the middle? yes.. huhu. ah. Kebayan wore this same outfit to magically dissapear. hahaha bekareh kamu??? beguna ni pakai nyubok amah orang sebalah mandi (SIAPA TESLIUR) 😛

Anyway,before i lupa..

Selamat menyambut.. hari raya bulan Ramadhan, Happy Fasting, moga puasa dan amalan amalan di terima oleh Allah SWT.

Kamu kamu yang di ostrolia anie.. ( a few reminders)
1. Jan PUASA stangah hari.. walaupun tani break-fast kan pukul TUJUH malam. COBAAN BUI.
2. Orang ISLAM puasa mana minum AIR.
3. memasukkan apa apa saja benda ke rongga terbuka = BATAL puasa. this includes: MEROKOK,SWIMMING,MAKAN,MINUM dan menghidu Vicks stick..apa lagi GAM? hehe.
4. Siapa siapa yang kana invite ke cocktail party malam sabtu ani, JANTAH DATANG even if they insist on offering you non-alcoholic beverages. haha payah tu mun CHAMPAGNE NYA FREE FLOWING. haha.
5. Inda buleh liat seksi seksi.
6. Inda buleh mengumpat.
7. Inda buleh mengumpat.
8. Inda buleh mengumpat.
9. Inda buleh mengumpat.
5. Berhati hati di jalan raya. selamat maju jaya.sama jan main badil inda tantu tantu..kana pikir LAIN karang tau tah sini ani, nowadays they have the right to tahan anyone who looks ‘suspicious’. huhu. kalau kan main badil pun..cukur dulu janggut.

kiss me.