time passes, people change. jangantah people, Sapit lagi krg ani warna warna usulnya. sudahtah warna warna, dalamnya ada lagi Nutella! isuk2 apa kah lagi ada dalam sapit.. sapit dalam sapit dalam sapit dalam sapit ada nutella kali! nice jua tu ah. sapit inception.

it has been a great month so far. so great that i’m enjoying a bag of honey-coated belinjau as i type. ive lost some of my holiday weight but it is nowhere nowhere near ideal. which made me stop and think.. that perhaps.. i am sebenarnya at my happy weight? this is my happy weight? and that i am feeling more content than i have in the last few years. i am at my happiest. yes!!! it must be happiness. could it be happiness?

u know what..it ishappiness until i put on my every day clothes.

sampit semua. kalau ku pakai baju mcm kan carik kali baju ani. carik carik baju macam tarzan.

tarzan kampung serusop…ok sambung lagi makan sapit.

hahaha.

oh sapit.

y u so good?

Seminggu sudah selamat tahun baru ani. inda lagi lama selamat tahun baru cina. ada ariatu ke tebaca di whatsapp, org atu ckp ‘selamat tahun baru hijrah’. kali orang atu selama ani tidur. pasalnya i think what she meant was selamat tahun baru ‘masehi’. its ok tu. baik jua bukan selamat tahun baru KRISMAS.

teruskan tidur untuk negara (pasal si Ka Jah ani andang kebilangan bekuruh di opis lol lol)

in anycase, i enjoyed my new york holiday. so much, that my sis dared me to change my IG display name to NY-SITI cause i simply will not stop talking about it.

and now here i am, from being in the center of the universe straight back to the center of a headache. vorenx. suffering from post-holiday blues.

anyway.

kizz me homie.

Watching nonsense on tv. Currently somewhere near Jakarta.Been here four days and i can’t wait to aBANDUNG ship. i miss home. i miss my cat. i miss my bed. i miss my blue bruneian sky , clean air and quiet roads.

things you take for granted.

anyway. back to what i’m watching.

ntah pokoknya (jangan pokok kelapa) ive been watching nonsense since waking up from my anti-histamine slumber. All the local channels are airing shows recorded in front of live audiences.. and all of them seem to bear the same nonsense concept;

1. live bands playing loud dangdut music
2. random stage acts.. and;
3. loud screeching laughter from at least ONE female presenter and ONE person from the audience.

and from channel to channel, i notice that all of the audiences seem to be having a good time. must be the dangdut. dangdut is truly the music of this country. and i love it. there’s just something about it that can make even the truest tired of them all move with the music.

haha. this is sometimes 10x better than watching the shit on bbc or cnn. sometimes ignorance is bliss. you just need to give your mind a break.

in any case.. lookie at what i found.

an inspiring story of a pengamen boy. yang dulunya ia di buang, sekarang ia di sayang.

haha.

kiss me.

My cat is fast asleep on the edge of the bed. He doesn’t usually sleep on my bed cause his thick fur makes him panas! so he usually ends up spending the night on the cool adjoining bathroom floor. I refuse to switch on the air-con just to please a cat (but i would do all sorts of other things).

So how did he ended up on the edge of my bed? hehe..it must’ve caused by the suitcases that i pulled out from the corner of my room to prep for my flight out tmrw. This usually tells Pepinot that he won’t be seeing his Kaka Siti for a while. He probably have sensed it much much much earlier cause he has been following me around the house all week.

After years of begging and pleading my mom for ONE (my sis cried).. we finally scored ourselves CATS. hehe. As it turned out, Molly sealed a deal with one of her friends to adopt a kampung+persian hybrid named Bane. Whilst i got myself a maine coon+persian that i named Pepinot, after a male kiddy character from the french movie Les Choristes. Oui!

I’ve also labeled Pepinot as MY BEST BUY OF 2012.

kan mcm si pepi kan usulnya? kiuttttt.

We’re still trying to navigate our way through mother-cat-hood.

We changed the cats’ food the moment we found out that MEOW MIX is the same as KFC to humans. Bane is a cold-hearted kampong cat so he’s abit stronger than my Pepinot who has been been getting ‘the runs’ from the sudden diet change.

He’s been pooping so much that he’s earned the title “POOP-INOT BEST BUY OF 2012, BIGGEST SHIT STIRRER OF 2013”. dont get me wrong though, i still love him but it sucks having to clean after him ESPECIALLY when you’re already late for work. It’s not like “Kucing ku sakit parut” could be used as a credible excuse for tardiness kan?

Seems like Bane on the other hand, has a stronger immune system. but im not going to go there. Bane’s also a little shit in his own right. he refuses to be carried. he doesn’t like to be carried. he hates being carried. i mean, what sort of cat does that???????? he also doesn’t answer when he’s being called , has the tendency to “disappear” for a whole day..and will only send back the bottle cap when he’s bored to death.

If there’s anything that Bane loves, he loves playing with bottle caps. To the point that we’ve resorted to playing catch using them. The thing is, he only started sending the cap back to the thrower when Pepinot was admitted to the Vet. For a week, we threw bottle caps around the house to keep Bane entertained. each time we threw it at him, he’d come back with the bottle cap tightly secured in between his teeth. but it was GAME OVER the moment Pepinot came home, he stopped sending the bottle caps back and would only stare at it like it was some cheap caviar.

sigh.

i didn’t know i could write a whole post on cats.

……i think i shud go to sleep now. cause i know the only one who would appreciate this story would be Lisa. kekekeke.

kiss me.

I thought i had a list of things to blog about, turns out it was mostly work related stuff that i have since churned out in to reports. hahahaha. How can?

This hotel i’m currently staying in serves up a good cup of latte. It is also in good timing that Ms Flow decided to come to town. By town, i mean Manila and by good timing, because it’s puasa .. which means i get to have guilt-free coffee for the whole duration of the meetings. i need my coffee and someone up there is at least being sympathetic about it 🙂

in any case. i have not been home since the start of puasa, and im terribly homesick. 3 more days. i cannot wait.

Selamat berpuasa guys dan Selamat bersungkai.

Blogging aint dead. Says Flipboard.

macam Pang (punk) not dead.

I’m in love with the Flipboard app on the iphone. but what makes it suck is the internet connection. But i’m not going to go there. Internet connection in Brunei sucks. but that’s old news. you can read all about it in my previous posts. i think ive bad-mouthed espeed enough in this life time that im certain that i will be turned in to a espeed router in the next life.

anyway, i’m in the midst of creating a wishlist on Amazon for my birthday. i’ll be sharing the link in a while and i encourage you to click on it if you’re feeling generous. It’s useful resource for those who are perhaps thinking of getting me something..but don’t know where to start..well. look no further.

http://amzn.com/w/37GKRUTXJ8UU3

all i want for my birthday are cake stands and cookbooks. although… if you’re feeling generous…and you’re thinking of getting me something……..

Currently on transit in Changi. En route to somewhere fabulous. riding in biz class.. ive made sure that my make up artist is part of my entourage this time. Just did a little bit of shopping. Oh and ive stocked up on my Lamer and my hermes scarves.

hahahahahahahahahahahhaa. i wish.

the joke’s on me.

let me start over.

Currently in Changi. waiting for the next flight out to country x to attend meeting x. riding the kambing. and this morning i packed my bags and made my way to the airport, half asleep. confirm tetinggal spendet/spendets (spendet ka spindit? ka spindar? ka spender?)

i wouldn’t call this JET SETTING. never. in my life. especially when you know you going to be spending the next week cooped up in a meeting room with bad lighting , sipping endlessly on cups of (bad) coffee cause you know..your life depends on it. Although i do have to admit this is probably a good way to see the world.. but those who have LIVED will agree that it’s not the IDEAL way.

it’s okay. my time will come. as they say. susah susah dulu senang senang kemudian..ataupun difficult difficult first, easy easy later. LOL. i just love translating malay peribahasa into english. what would the world do if I was the person behind GOOGLE TRANSLATE? hahahahahahahaahaha.

turtle turtle in the boat…………

toodles.

I was going to blog. and then i was like, ok. after this episode of Hoarders.
I was going to blog. and then i was like, maybe ok. after this shower.
I was going to blog. and then i was like, uh-oh *clicks on pop up ad*
I was going to blog. and then i was like, lets check how much money i have in my account this month..
I was going to blog. and then i was like, after replying to these work emails lah..
I was going to blog. and then i was like, ZZZzzzzzz…

I was going to blog. I was already on my blog. I was ready to type ..when… I..

ZZZZzzzzzzz….

ok. and that’s why i havent blogged.

4 months since my last post. It’s November now, going on December. Where have i been all year? I feel like i spaced out for most part of the year. November. seriously? 🙁

It has been a trying period..im weighing out my options. but maybe all i need is a break from it all.

is two weeks enough?

🙁

leaving for Hongkong in abit. at least i can blog about this self-funded trip.

uwaaa so out of my element. i don’t think ive ever been like this in my life.

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i seek comfort in blogging. which is why i decided to blog this morning. the tragedy that swept the nation yesterday has left everyone in mourning. my condolences, thoughts and prayers go out to those who were directly effected by the incident. being only an outsider, i cannot begin to imagine what those who lost their loved ones are going through right now.

life’s unfair like that. But Allah knows best. He would only test the strongest minds to make them even stronger and to better prepare them for the future. whatever it may holds.

Although, this is always easier said than to actually believe, there’s always a silver lining to everything. That’s how you keep on going.

as i sit here, cross legged in my Korean apartment.. i can’t help but wonder what the future holds. It’s always the fear of not knowing that creeps up on you. especially in times of hardship.

A few weeks ago, i came across a stack of papers at work which i thought were documents. I looked at it closely and discovered that it was really a photocopied version of the book “The Alchemist” which belonged to one of the Pavilion staff. Curious, i sat down and read the first page and the next thing i knew, i took the ‘book’ home with me.

It was a beautiful piece of work.

I thought i’d share some of the excerpts in the book that really spoke to me:-

– “Don’t give in to your fears. If you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.” ? Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

– “I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living now.” ? Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Anyway, moving on to the topic of silver linings, I can say openly that i dont really favor this colleague of mine, it’s nothing personal though, but more work related. However, if i hadn’t met her and had she not been around to work with, I wouldn’t find this beautiful book.

and that’s a silver lining on its own.

anyway, it’s a brand new day, Alfatihah to those who lost their lives in the heli crash.

I will miss you very much my brother. In the short time i’ve known you you have been one of the kindest people i’ve ever met. semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dengan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.

Stay strong everybody. Take comfort in the fact that everything always happens for a reason and seek protection and strength in your prayers.

kiss me.