aku suka lagu ani, banar..banar banar banar.

Keasyikan layananmu
Menggambarkan kemesraan
Diantara sejuta kenangan
Di abadi dalam jiwa
Kepuraan timbul jua
Hakikatnya tersisih
Dari sisi

Mengapa ada persimpangan
Yang memisahkannya
Di sebalik keasyikan itu
Lalu ku tersingkir
Menjauh
Di sudut memori duka
Abadi

Jika itu tak dipinta
Mengapakah tercipta
Dalam sedar
Semua itu kerana
Simpati dan lena
Dibuai resah dan curiga
Ku tak pasti
Adanya perpisahan

a losing end to what could’ve been a good day. siok sudah. hepi hepi. yatah inda buleh telampau hepi. kalau telampau hepi ani..

it usually produces TWO possible outcomes:-

1. Obesity.
2. Menangis.

i’d prefer the latter. at least sekajap saja. hahaha.

banar ja?

sigh. ok. i’m going to try again tomorrow.

kiss me.

ps: paloi ah amah2 sekarang ani?

Good morning. I woke up earlier than usual today and decided to make myself breakfast.

perfect soft boiled eggs on (salted) buttered toast. if only i had smoked salmon..it could’ve been the nonidentical twin to an egg benedict.

I should make a habit of waking up early in the morning to have breakfast. It leaves me full until Lunch. at least at work i won’t be craving for a 10am Kway Teow hit from the restaurant at the office. IF you can even call it that. a restaurant. heh.

im houties.

kiss me.

What has been a quiet but eventful weekend. I ran my heart out these past two days. I took my restless legs for a jog around Jerudong Park instead of my normal Stadium route..which was getting a little bit tooo routine..and oh how i love it!!

I never realised how beautiful Jerudong Park was. To this end, (ever since YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED IN 1997), my idea of the place was where horses from the golden fence have been known to go missing, poorly maintained marble floors, smelly toilets and abandoned theme park rides.. in essence , if it wasn’t for the underaged kids who occasionally shuffle to fengtau music blasting from their cars on the weekends, the stall vendors who fill the air with the smell of grilled chicken(butt)..the place was a ghost town.

However, running changed my perception. Running from the huge white mansion all the way to Bridex i came to terms with how really beautiful the place was. It does look like a rundown rich man’s playground, but it’s STILL a rich man’s playground nonetheless. Driving through the park by car, you tend to take things for granted but RUNNING through the park, pass the diamond monument, the bridge and the stables.. it really gives you a totally different experience.

You know the bridge between JP and the road leading up to the highway/JPMC? My Jog-buddy and I strolled under it and we felt like we weren’t in Brunei. lol. and it was only a bridge!!!! lol.

Perhaps, i might have just discovered what running is really all about. It’s really about utilizing your senses. By being able to feel,hear and see everything around you it makes way for a different perspective of things.

Maybe this is what i should aim for in the future. Run through beautiful scenic places like Rio! Rome! Spain! Greece! China! Labuan! Limbang…Serasa beach …..Damuan. lol. you know. to not just limit my runs to Brunei.

It’s not just about losing weight anymore, it’s about expanding my horizons. in every true sense of the word. From now on, it’ll just be me, my running shoes, my nike plus and my iphone/nano 😀

running has so far been the sweetest escape. I started sometime in March last year on and off, and it took me this long to get to 10km..atu pun im still at the 1hr 10 min mark. This month’s aim is to shave off the 10minutes and try and do 10km within an hour. For a girl who have always loathed running, i’m not doing too bad 🙂 yes. i’m tooting my own horn only because IT TOOK ME OVER 10 MONTHS.

anyway that was awesome eh! though im gonna have to go back to the stadium tomorrow cause i doubt peak hour traffic would allow me to drive all the way to Jerudong just in time for my run. 😀

here are the shots i managed to take with my iphone during my run this arvo..

unicorns. hahaha.

ok i gotta run (get it get it?) haha. Work tomorrow. 🙁
have a good monday and a good week ahead everyone.

kiss me.

What can i wax lyrical about today? huhu. It’s nice out. You know, that kind of weather where it looks like its ABOUT to rain, but not yet? i just saw a bird fly past my window, hello bird. how are we today?

It’s the 4th day of the 1st month of the 11th year of the 21st century, Only. (haha mcm menulis cheque)

I have two packets of Pretzel MnMs sitting on mydesk . don’t worry. it doesn’t taste as good as it sounds. honestly, it tastes like cheap indonesian chocolates. u know how a KIT KAT may LOOK like a KIT KAT sekali sudah masuk mulut mcm rasa STOR??? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh CEMATU. 😉

i just realised why i almost never by Ferrero Rocher. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVEEE FERRERO ROCHER. kalau tah bulih ku makan hari hari, setiap masa, 28 jam sehari, 9 hari seminggu, 101 tahun Se-Abad Dua Puloh Sen, Only. but i never buy them on my own. And hari atu, me and my sister were wondering WHY. Everytime i see Ferrero Rochers on sale, mcm i’d want to pick it up and take it straight to the counter, but something in my head would usually tell me NO (no no no no, dont phunk with my heart) bah. Dont. which is weird. It could possible be how they’re priced. quite expensive from the typical chokichoki..and plus, in our household,we grew up treating Ferrero Rochers like the chocolates of the GODS.. and you can only have it on special occasions.. these are probably the contributors to WHY i stop and think before buying some. But then again, dude. now that i think about it.. If i can spend SO MUCH BLOODY MONEY on gourmet chocolates? why the hell can’t i spend just as much on Ferrero Rochers??? Oh i said, this out loud by the way..and Kel was nodding her head vigorously in agreement.

SO ANYWAY,
Singgah tah ku ke HuaHo Minimart ariatu.. (kan membali gula sama baking paper pakai ku baking kan?) skali.. i caved in and bought a row of ferrero rochers..I devoured them straight away in the car. I took a bite and i was instantly REMINDED WHY i never BUY them on my own.

PASALNYA KALAU KU MEMBALI FERRERO ROCHER SLALUNYA……..

………………. MASUK ANGIN. EXSP KALAU DI BRUNEI. SAMA EXSP KALAU BALI DI HUAHO MINIMART. KENAPA CHOCOLATE ‘MINIMART’ ANI SLALU MASUK ANGIN???????????????????????????????????????????????????????? baik jua inda keluar ASAP.

lol. so it really wasn’t because my HEAD thought it was EXPENSIVE. sasakku. *pui pui pui* ku ludahi tarus ferrero rocher yang bangas wafer nya atu arah tissue, skali aku reverse keritaku sampai bebunyi sensor keritaku..sekali aku…balik kerumah. hehe. (attention to detail jua aku atu ah?).

skalinya si Kel cali kemarin (pasal ya bday)…

We were having drinks after dinner when Amal Liyana turned up with a sore finger.

Kel: kenapa jari mu?
AL: Mambang.
Kel: ah.. Mambang Tanah kah… Mambang Angin?

HAHAHAHA aku kecalian berabis.. sampai hari ani.

ok bye bye.

Respect is EARNED not GIVEN.

be modest la wei. get your feet on the ground.

NEVER talk DOWN to ANYONE. exsp when you’re not ALL THAT to begin with.

kiss me.

One liners on Whatapp are magical. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have anything of substance to share with a friend. Sometimes its just nice to check up on them by leaving a line or two on their facebook page, twitter or whatapp. my current favorite medium to keep in touch is whatapp. whatapp. whatapp. mcm instead of saying hi, you can send a photo a short video or a short voice clip. i do this because sometimes i find it easier to take a photo as opposed to TYPING. exsp when your keyboard is touch screen and god gave you big stubby fingers.

but i refuse to complain about my big stubby fingers cause that’s one my first resolutions for 2011.

1. Don’t complain, instead try to be grateful of what you have.
2. Try to accept things as they are. embrace it. let go of the little things.
3. Try to be more patient.
4. Do more non-work related Traveling.
5. Run further distances in shorter time.
6. Give more, demand less.
7. Talk less, more action.
8. Save up for the future. (this means cutting down on impulse shopping.. THINK before bolting out of Sephora with 3 tubes of lip gloss that you are never going to wear, THINK before walking out of Borders with BOOKS that you will never have the time to read..CUT THE creditcardwith the LARGER limit in HALF or shred them to death like you are SHREDDER from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle)
9. If #8 fails, BAKE more. Keep adding on new items to The Cakery’s menu.
10. Either WORK SMART or WORK HARD & PLAY HARD.
11. Take care of yourself better.
12. Meet new people.
13. Print less on PAPER.

2011 will be my 3rd year of being back in the Village for good. Ive just realised that i’m going through a trial and error stage in my life as i experienced during my first few years of being in melbourne. I’m going through that phase where i’m still trying to find out who i am, and as far as relationship/friendship goes, trying to figure out who i should be keeping in my life and who i should be avoiding like the plague…i believe that it’s the people that you surround yourself with is what YOU are made of.

ive learnt so much this year..at the same time i’m also discovering alot about myself. my stengths, my weaknesses..my potential.. im running a mental SWOT analysis on MYSELF as im typing this up. Clearly, there’s room for improvement. alot of improvement.

This year, had been a challenge. (bestfriends stabbing you in the back, bestfriends not being bestfriends anymore, dealing with the mess of a bad breakup, trying to cope in a ‘working’ environment – not being your own boss anymore, separating WORK from PERSONAL life 😉 ) It’s been really difficult you know. but alhamdulillah. i’ve finally come to terms with it and i’m slowly but surely adapting to it.

These things take years to master, as i’ve learnt during my young and stupid teenage days in Melbourne.. it’s the same thing..but the issues are now more complex. and instead of a Young and Stupid teenager, i am now an EXPERIENCED, young and stupid, YOUNG ADULT who plans to take on the year as it comes (ofcourse, being mindful of the drama that could be avoided 🙂 )

….experienced,yound and stupid, young adult… cemana kannie? lol.

but whatever.

POKOKNYA. (the tree is)

they say what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger

…..and what comes around goes around.

2011, BRING IT!!!

<3 have a good one everybody.

exams are driving me up the wall. its even harder when DECEMBER isn’t as quiet as it’s supposed to be. i should really just focus on passing ONE or the other. I’ll try not to be ashamed to rock up at the same briefing by the same people at the same venue next year.

back to work.

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Was going through the Jazz cd that i got as an xmas gift from my good friend Clare when i came across a track by Lisa Ekdahl and was instantly reminded of this song, also by her:-

This takes me back to my first year of University with my housemate Inta. We either had this on repeat, in the car or the OST to Chicago.

If the sun
Refused to shine
Down on me
‘Till the end of time
As long as i have your caress
Your tenderness
I will be blessed

If the stars
Refused their light
Just for me
They stayed out of sight
If you say you love me best
I won’t care less
I will be blessed

If the wind won’t blow your name
Until i’m still.

Funny how the songs we listened to sometimes makes more sense now than it did before.

Yes. I know, I also need to find out who that guy, playing the guitar in the video is.

how can i ignore such a pretty face?

lol

Enjoy the rest of the week guys. Tahan2 saja. Kana marah, talan saja….

just remember, I (or YOU) will be blessed!

bisou.bisou.

if i walk away and just let you leave.. you’ll be stuck in my head like a melody~