deck the halls with joys of holly..la la la la la la la la

hehe salah lagu. definitely not Hail Amir’s track.

do u know who Hail amir is? the hail amir who comes from hail amir land? i guess not.

what do u mean i’m so melayu?

Aren’t u malay too (you bloody idiot)? speaking in english 24/7 doesnt make you not-melayu..it just makes you not bi-lingual, sometimes a Poklen. I dont know why your parents brought you up not speaking malay. maybe back in the day, they were THE poklens of their time. ha. One day when i have kids, im going to have them speak malay around the house and send them to malay tuition and they will all get a at least a B3 for their olevel results. They will ask for food in malay, ask for water in malay even tell the maids they want to poo poo in malay. cause thats just how malay i want them to be. They’re only allowed to speak in english when they’re at school sometimes with me, when i only know how to say certain things in english huhu.

This absurd mentality of not getting your kids to get in to the habit speaking in malay (exsp when they havent been anywhere else apart from BRUNEI) .. so that they would be so goooood english is sooooooooooo 1980s. Doesn’t just happen to malay families though. i dont know why some asian families believe running away from their mother tongues would make them better people..better than everyone else even. another product of colonisation i suppose? mun sudah itam dang..digasa gasa nda jua lagi mau putih tu..mun sudah mata sipit inda lagi mau basa tu. jantah di pajal.

just my 2 cents. only because i feel like ranting.

im off to bed now.

currently in a search for the ‘hairdresser of my dreams’. Any recommendations? like every other girl in this whole wide world, i am very fussy when it comes to choosing the right hairdressers. A haircut can seriously make or break you (mehek or brehek. huhu random). I hate having to leave the salon hating my hair for the next month or two..sometimes three. sometimes its forever i just hate having to feel suicidal over HAIR. I hate having to tell the hairstylist that i like what they’ve done to my hair when i really dont. And i also hate how they make your hair only ‘lawa’ at the salon but it looks like crap once you get home and you’ll be like.. APAKAN DURANG TARUH ARAH RAMBUT KU ANI? TAHI KAH?

coming across a good hairdresser is harder than one would think. sanang plang lagi mencari laki tu. when i was younger i didnt used to care who i go to. but i think, i am now vainer than how i used to be. and vanity being a nuisance is just shouting out for a hairdresser that i can call my memberz. and please, none of that flamboyant amateur social climbing stuff. sooo over it. good hairdressers do not have to be gay.

approaching 2nd week of raya. crazy how time flies. i guess time flies even faster when you’re constantly stuffing your face with food. which means you are gaining weight twice as fast pun. GOOOOODLUCK SYAZ.

back in business as usual this week. although im not expecting alot of orders as i just realised that many would not be expecting salaries until 2nd week of october? or so? why do salaries have to come out all at the same time ah? why can’t it be staggered? and to whom should i really be conveying this to?

hello pizzahut? kenapa semua gaji org keluar sama sama at one go?
hello tasconi?
hello mcdonalds, ada delivery utk hari ani? sama kenapa semua gaji org keluar sama2 ah? kita punya keraja kah? oh sama kenapa delivery kita slalu betebiat? kenapa mutusikal kita 2 buting ganya? kenapa nda kita membali 7 buting? kenapa? kenapa? kenapa??????

huhuhu bah hello? kan tidur ku.

see you all in the morning.

Currently updating my Tweetdeck anddddddd running aa software update for the computer…give it a few more seconds and my espeed will accelerate to zero. kalau ku kan mem-publish ani pun batah kan load ni.. uwek.

I was just looking at photos. i finally updated my Ilife, courtesy of Nazmi textile mall (sorry dude i can’t resist huhu!oh and lainkali bali lagi brownie banyak2) and now i got the latest version of iphoto running! the one i previously had sucked cos it wasn’t able to categorise photos according to the dates taken. Despite being a messy person by nature, i loveeee my photos neatly labeled and organized! haha.. having organized photos also means that t am now able to literally see what i’ve really been up to in the last 8 months that ive been back..dari ku turun kabal terabang. in a way, im also in the midst of updating myy Life while updating everything else on my macbook.. now. if only there was a mac upgrade that could fix Denial….doo doo doo bee doo..but thats another story. for another blog. huhu.

Selamat Hari raya by the way everyone, Maaf zahir & Batin. Been busy last few days. The parentals are sending tharwana off to UK tommorrow so we’ve been having an open house throughout the first three days of raya. The first two days weren’t as hectic but today we’re expecting sheer craziness around the house. he he he..buleh ku eskep ke matadoe kah ni?

anyway i tink i shud indulge in a few more minutes of sleep before braving the day. Selamat hari raya KETIGA everyone. ha! ha!

kiss me.

and i am soooooooo excited. this is the first..(oh here we go again!) time in 3 years since ive been back for raya. the last time being 2005 kali 2006. crazy or not? roll your eyes if you like..but i feel like i want to be eight again and go out and play bunga api like i don’t have asthma! huhuhu.

Just the other day i couldn’t resist buying myself yang pop pop anu badil bawang ah yang damit damit? takut2 lagi tu when i got home i felt like i had to hide it from my dad in fear that just like 20 years ago, he wouldn’t approve of such things …bapa ku ani pengijab bah kamu huhu.. and OH my maid having found the pack among my groceries thought it was a new ingredient for my brownies. tekajut ku when i saw it on top of the sugar container.

mcm Umi. hello. aku buat brownie.. bukan buat bomb!

he he he.. im in the middle of installing sims. i have to bake in a while. been really busy this week with raya orders and what not. i need my sleep.

kiss me.

Addicted to Neopets. no idea why im still calling it Neopets when its really pet society. lol. Calling it neopet seems soooo freakin ancient for my 16 years of age, 24 years of existence. lol. and i’m THAT much of a pet-society beginner! so much that the other day, as iwas opening my pet’s home page my sister kel caught my saying “Eh siapa mandihi KUCING ku?” lol.

KUCING ani kan. when its not even a cat. lol. ilang cool eh. huhu. tapi kalau bukan ucing apatah??????? cubatah.

btw, is it make out season for cats sudah kah?????????? cause they’re everywhere and all of them are NOISY.

… doo bee doo bee doo..

oh and by the way.. jantah ku dibawa kekadai time puasa puasa ani.. this is what happened on two DIFFERENT occassions.

ani yang ku gambar. yang ku inda gambar lagi???? hahaha.

banar. its like everytime i hit the supermarkets before sungkai, the first thing the thirsty-part-of-my-brain say to me is ” make a charge to the cold beverage section!”. I would gladly obey and start loading my cart with all sorts of different bottled or canned drinks. lol tu mcm POKKA ah behantu!! skali sudah balik yang diminum semacam jua ganya ..sampit saja fridge. lol. baik jua minuman cematu cematu ah?..mun yang cemani cemani *shakes hand across face in a drinking motion* . huhuhu. but yeah, karing lihir jua sudah tu time puasa atu ah? lol.

anyway..its that time between just-sahured and imsak again. ive found a book to read. so bye.

kiss me.

I’ve been having the worsssttt craving for Nandos recently. The plan was to have peri peri chicken at charcoal with Ghah yesterday..but they werent serving ala carte until 9pm during puasa and the buffet was deprived of these lemony hot birds. We detoured to excapade instead and i drowned my peri peri sorrows in Sashimi and Sushi.

And then on the way home i remembered i had abottle of extra hot peri peri sauce from Nandos sitting in the fridge at home. Courtesy of Sydney girl, Amal! (thank you babe!i really love you for it. i really do!) So this afternoon i lifted my ass off the couch and went out buy chicken from the trusty supasep. Got home, marinated them quickly in peri peri sauce , chucked them in the oven at low heat as i didnt have time to let it marinate the normal way.. and within 10 minutes of Sungkai i managed to get them on the BARBIE (lol how freakin australian) and then VOILA.. NANDOS for Sungkai. Ofcourse it wasn’t the same as having the real nandos.. but it did my cravings justice. Now i dont have to talk about Nandos for at least 3 more months…or until saturday..huhuhuhu.

i could still taste it in my mouth.

kel was telling me that this wasnt Nandos.. but a NANDO. hahahaaha. mcm sugarbun..tapi jadi sugarbaaa… ….. *awkward turtle moment* nevermind.

btw Abang Mani (driver) balik sodah! hahahah he was the one who fired up the grill for me. skali nya tadi

Me: mani mani mana tong ah? (referring to thongs!)
Mani: ha? itu PISTOL kah?
Me: HA?
Mani: Pistollllll kah Pistol untuk api kah??

lol rupanya he was referring to the lighter thing yang mcm pistol ah hahahaha PISTOL tah sudah tu hahahahahaha. sakit parut ku. skali skali

Me: mani, wah balik dtg kirja sini ah. kenapa ariatu kurus sekarang sudah gemok?
Mani: saya sana kirja itu farem bah.. (farm) yeekan ada, baaras ada.. jyaGONG ada..
Me: wah kaya sudah kau ni kenapa kau kirja sini lagi?
Mani: sudah janjey itu babu sama bapa nanti dia dua orang MARA.
me: ah sampai bila tah kau keraja sini?
Mani: yeetu kontrek sampai 3 taon lapas atu sambong lagi..
me: jadinya sampai bila?
Mani: yeetu kontrek kasi sambong sambong la..
me: ah jadinya sampai kau mati?
mani: hahahahahahahaah cali sittti!

hahahahahaahah oh how we’ve missed him!

lol.

kiss me.

Its about time that there’s a feel good song out! This song is by no other than THE Whitney Houston.. despite not looking like the OLD whitney.. mcm maybe she’s just getting old? maybe its BOTOX ? or maybe she’s just getting old? maybe it was the cocaine? but maybe..just maybe..it was the BOTOK? huhuh ..but yeah she still has it!

thanks guys for recommending this song.

good morning Brunei!

kiss me.

cause without it, there won’t be drama. what are we without drama? we love drama so much that we’ve even decided to depict it on tv in the form of a 25-disc-drama-series-in-the-korean-language. anyong! kamsamida! arrosso? de.. kudeyo..

just had sahur. u know that time in between just-sahured and going to sleep. well. yeah this is the time. scared if i go to sleep straight away ill vomit in my sheets. i know its boderline mihir. but the thought really helps prevent you from falling asleep as soon as you have that last (son of a) big gulp of water. mcm kalau mata mu kan tetidur atu.. u say to ureself ‘jangan tidur dulu..muntah krg kau..jangan tidur..muntahhhhh krg..nada si Umi mau membersihkan ni.’ huhu..

no plans as yet for tommorrow. i bet ill wake up in the weeeee hours of the AFTERNOON kali. ive been such a lazy ass lately. im constantly tired from all this stupid thinking. it doesn’t help that you can’t eat and think during the day cause so you end up getting even more tired. bnr. ive been sleeping anywhere i plop in the last 3 days. well at least im sleeping. but i guess, thinking WHILST sleeping is even more tiring. is there a spinning needle somewhere that i can prick my finger with so i can be sleeping beauty? just for a night kah? kadai jahit di brunei ani semua sibuk..ani lagi last minute kan hari raya..

which reminds me. ive got nothing new to wear this raya. i went to Gypsy the other day thinking that i could just buy maybe 2 or 3 of their ready made garments cause i saw ALOT the other day. the other day ku ani 3 bulan lapas plang. huhu. Skali the other day (banar banar the other day ni) we went..doi they only had two left. and the baju had frills on them..and in my head i was like FOR THE LIFE OF GOD.. WHY????????????????? and the seamstress was pushing both of the garments in my hands saying ‘Siti, this is nice forr you, this is the only ones we have left and im selling two for sixty dollars!’ i was sooo insulted. mcm aku kan balas balik “Nida! TIDAK! bawa baju itu jauh jauh!! Nanti saya MUNTAH!” (drama)

but seriously, i didnt want to touch it… i hated it. if i had taken them home i’d probably make it a point to sleep right after sahur and vomit all over it. but yeah there goes my dream of having a new raya frock for this first time raya in 3 years im having in brunei episode. aku atu jua lambat kali. i keep on putting things to the last minute. but its ok..ill probably just go out in..oh i dont know in my baju tidur kupu kupu and wait in the car with the driver while the family goes off raya-ing. he he.

anyway its five am !! ok. i can sleep now.

wait..i wonder if they would have anything NICE and AFFORDABLE left at Khazanah? u see..im seriously lost when it comes to this whole buat baju kurong business. if you ask me on the stop to the name 2 tailors in brunei… GYPSY , KHAZANAH saja ku tepikiri.. ah awu sama si Aniq..amah kami lama..ya pandai jahit selimut buruk ku. huhuhu.

kiss me.

Notice how we go “berapa sekepala?” at restaurants when referring to the buffet? lol. baru ku realise, bunyinya mcm PENGAIT. hahahaha. If i was a foreigner working i would most likely be scared by the question asked. lol.

ive also realised how hard it is to book tables over the phone. exsp when a filipino waiter or waitress on the other line. They seem to ALWAYS fck up instructions and you almost ALWAYS end up having to repeat everything over and over. So tadi, i finally found a way to solve the problem - i called them up and spoke in a FILIPINO accent. Which went like this

Me: KAN I BUQ A TABOL lator por soongkai?
Man on the other line: na prablem. por wat time?
Me: siks.
Man: ok. how many parsons?
Me: TWO PAKS (they loveeeee using ‘pax’!)
Man: na prablem. yorrr name and phone namber pls?
Me: Siti. Phone nambarr: 89 - PIPTY TAUSAN.
Man: so 8 9 5 0 0 0 0?
Me: corrrect. Thank you.

See!! No hassle!!! no Fuss!!! nooooo need to repeat every single thing. on a normal day it would usually go like this

Me: hi can i book a table for sungkai pls?
Man: excuse me?
Me: can i book a table for sungkai?
Man: yes..for how many people.
Me: 2
Man: how many mam?
Me: 2
Man: ok 2 PAKS ha? (there it is again PAX!) can i have your phone number please?
me: 8950000
Man: excuseme?
me: *a little bit slower * 8 9 5 0 0 0 0
Man: what mam? again again?
me: 89 fifty thousand!!!
Man: again pls?
Me: *hungry and distressed* eiiiiiight…nineeeeee…fiveeeee..zero..zero..zero..zero
Man: okai thank you. see u laterrr ha.

kan. this is why my number is EIGHT NAIN PIPTI TAUSAN from now on. hah. same thing when dealing with indos.. speak in indonesian! (HIGHLy RECOMMENDED WHEN DINING AT THE SINGAPORE TABLE BTW!!) makes your life sooooooo freakin much easier. i promise. sas brownies guaranteed.

im gonna go hit the shower now. i know its late.. but i really need it. haha.

kiss me.

Painfully regretting the chase.Whoever said ‘its not over until its over’ is a moron.When its over its soooo over! Lesson (FINALLY) learned.

so anywing..lol. did i just typed anywing? how cute. so ANYWING, heading off to The mall in abit. gonna go shoe shopping and Daim hunting and oh whatever else there is to do at the mall. And then.. hopefully, breaking fast with my girl G at Charcoal. I’ve been craving nandos like its nobody’s business and then i remembered! Charcoal has peri peri chicken!!!!! not the same. but close. well not even close..but ‘peri peri’…

ive been meaning to post up photos of my brownies on thecakery. but i can’t seem to find the camera’s cable. what is it with me and losing things. seriously, one day, when i have lots of money i’m going hire myself a personal assistant. that’s the FIRST thing i would do!!! Aku mau jadi macam Syazwana Lee Simmons Brownie.

hahaha.

ok. ctch u guys later. its half past one sudah rupanya. which means ive been sleeping all day. woot woot.

kiss me.

ive always been. most people know this..and it’s something that i’ve always wanted to detach myself from Although it seems, to no avail. Like they say, leopards can’t change its spots and zebras have stripes and cows moo. i can try..i can probably tone it down a little bit or mask it with lots and lots of stickers that resemble zebra stripes but at the end of the day that’s just who i am - not a zebra. And its up to you, my friends, to accept me for it and ground me when it becomes too much of an annoyance.

Everyone’s got their own idio(tic)syncrasies. It is only when you start accepting them for what they are that you are able to see what really matters. At the end of the day, you want to be around people who will accept you for who you are. Otherwise, With a heavy heart, i’m just going to have to chuck everything in the ‘it’s just not meant to be’ files.

in the words of the french.. or was it an outdated girl band?

” SES LAFIE ”

or Cest La Vie.. u know..whatever. not in the mood to care. maybe for once, i shouldn’t.

Brunei, im going to take you one obstacle at a time.

I’m going to be just fine.

Have a good weekend everyone.

kiss me.

I shud really be updating TheCakery with photos kan? but i ohhhh so can’t be bothered right now. Puasa is almost coming to an end.. honestly, i dont really want it to. So far, its been a good one. its probably the most relaxing time ive had since ive been back. i love it.

in other news.. nada.

[thinking of what to blog next]

nada..

owh!!!!!!
I found this tadi on youtube and ive already turned it in to my ringtone. lol. and the song’s been ringing in my head the whole day. lol.

kiss me.

Sex and the city 2? cant wait. ive only like seen the first movie a gazillion times! and those aviators on ms parker looks delish. last i checked it was going for $500 bucks a pop. where in the world can i get money like that for aviators? if only money came down in its joyful abundance when it rains kan?

ive been obsessed with eyebrows lately. big bushy eyebrows. the Olsen twins are now carrying big brows like its the new IT bag. what is the new IT bag anyway? honestly, ive detached myself from fashion for a while now. i just realise there’s not much to dress up for here. nda kan org kawin makai gaun? huhu ingat kanak kanak 5 taun?

anyway, i dont know i just thought id blog. not like ive got anything much to say.. its one oclock lalu. prasahan ku time puasa ani jetlag bah. mcm i feel like i havent been getting enough sleep. it doesn’t help that i am now baking daily. lol. which i probably won’t be once this holy month is over. bebalik ku semula pakai slots kali. slots gigi. huhuhu. it’s taking its toll on me.. boring ku sudah meliat talur ani. meliat tapung..meliat mentiga. dont get me wrong i still enjoy baking plang.. but ntah i just need a break kali..but its ok nda lagi batah huhuhu.

i tink im gonna call it a night..

night night.

Vintage rose is one of the few places that serves a mean plate of Ayam Penyet. There’s a few more places plang..mostly in the kampong kampongs..like the one in Tanjong Nangka and the Kampong before before Tanjong Nangka.. Sengkurong? Though the setbcks of having Ayam Penyet in the kampng kampong pendalaman yang dalam dalaaaaam sekali punya ‘restoran’ are a plenty. 1. being forced to garu the spot on your kaki where the mosquito(s) just bit you balik balik (soon it will be the whole leg!). This is annoying on its own. but its even far more annoying to have to garu garu while you makan makan. nda jua manis tu? begaru sambil makan? huhuhu 2.And then there’s the HEAT.. most of these places are airconditioned-less and on a hot day, it feels like you might as well be eating on the eatery’s ZINC roof. And notice that the places that do have airconditioning pun mcm inda pedah pedah ber aircon cause their doors are always open! huhuhu. This is why i recommend Vintage rose for Ayam Penyet.. huhu.. fine! its abit $$$ for ayam penyet.. but its so good.. and its itching and scratching free. huhu

sasakku balik ke brunei ani. now ive got anak kampong skin. the thing is with me, i am very sensitive to mosquito bites. scratching them (my skin, not the mosquitos) the tiniest bit would result as a scab..that would then leave a mark. I used to have these marks all over my legs but it went away during the years that i was in melbourne.. putih kakiku skajap atu ani bebalik lagi semula.. uwaaaa..macam kaki anak kampong anu puas bemain sama ruda di jalan???? nangisku. Mcm now everytime mosquitos bite me i feel like they’re telling me.. mcm.. ‘U GOT OWNED, BITCH!’ or or ‘U been PIMPED!’ bnr.. such annoying little fcukers.

kong haja punya nyamuk. kali tuhan bagi aku cani supaya i wont go out in shorts? lol. or mini dresses?

hahaha.. craving for nandos. argh. i have to make that trip to melbourne happen. shud i just dismiss work interviews altogether????

kiss me.

example: u WANT me. but i NEED you.

I know. ive been neglecting this blog like it never existed in the first place. and ive been watching Sex and The city episodes like ive never watched them before. I’ve also been puasaing like ive never puasa-ed before.

This is the first time in 8 years since ive been back for Puasa..and its refreshing to be in an environment where people are so in to it. huhu. Well. The first dew days of puasa, i found it weird how the streets were quiet at 3 in the afternoon. I love being woken up for Sahur.. being called down by my siblings for Sungkai. And going for Terawikh afterwards. I am really enjoying this puasa experience back home.

why do we call it sungkai anyway?

sounds a little bit like Songkran. huhu. Dimana kamu songkran? huhu.

currently chatting to Ren on MSN. I was just telling her how i will be baking for RAYA..

rina_hakim@hotmail.com says: (1:06:34 PM)
eh apa saja kau buat ani?
rina_hakim@hotmail.com says: (1:06:43 PM)
Kek roll akademi fantasia ada?
hello lover says: (1:15:56 PM)
yeeee
hello lover says: (1:15:58 PM)
hahahahahahaha
hello lover says: (1:16:01 PM)
kek roll rebena
hello lover says: (1:16:09 PM)
kek roll harry potter
hello lover says: (1:16:22 PM)
yang baru kek roll final destination.

huhuhu. i feel like seafood. what i wouldnt give to have crabs and mantau for sungkai. but me thinks that will be too heavy kali.. crab plastik sama mantau plastik saja.

this post is so ramdon. its so ramdon it hurts. honestly i think ive lost all feel for blogging kali. maybe i shud start picking up another hobby.. lol..mcm mengangun. lol. awu wah ah..mcm how did penganguns become penganguns in the first place? did it derive from one’s hobby to groom brides kah? ataupun were they just thrown in to the profession by their parents (kalau inda kana acut!) ? wallahualambissawah.

hah. i can’t believe its only 1:30 PM.
whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat..

ive done my baking for the day. and i havent got anything else to do. kel’s just walked in to the room holding a banana in one hand and a glass of water in one hand. AKHIR JUA KAU SAHUR KEL. kul 1:30PM kau sahur ah. huhuhuhu.. kjp aku twitpic.

hahaha.
kiss me.